(Early Recordings)
LP released September 2011, CD and Download – available [here]
1 – Pact
2 – ASKOF
3 – Dream
4 – Moment
5 – Denial
6 – Saviour
7 – World Without Me
8 – Disappear
9 – Slush
10 – Empty Air
11 – Neon
12 – Twist
13 – Darling Boy
14 – Morgan
15 – Task
16 – Little Death (live)
You know everything about me
For you have long shadowed my steps
You have seen me at my very weakest
You have stayed at your best
Take me now, I’m just a shallow thrill
But give me time, I’ll be so much more
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Pick me up, drive me where e’er you will
Just understand this is my choice
I choose to drape myself before you
I give you leave to break our pact
Take me now, it will be meaningful
But give me time, I’ll be so much more
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Follow me! We move to different drums
And now you see, wonder comes
I have caused your strength to be your downfall
I have crawled so you rise
Take me now, I’ll conquer all around you
And given time, I’ll be your everything
Empathy is nothing if you haven’t got the words
Silence is golden in this cold and dirty world
Abandoned soldiers keep on fighting
Are we winning?
Do we even care?
Absolute solution gives us all the space to sin
Absolution seeks out those with the strength left to win
New converts for the creator
Let the little children come onto me
I have searched through all the channels
Divinity the one thing un-found
I’ve been bored in all the chat-rooms
Never heard a dissenting sound
If I was a little stronger
Safer in this cell of mine
I’d denounce your dullest doctrine
Condemn your sin
The same as mine
Culture crowds out my cries
Curses light as lies
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When I was young
I found time to waste
But now that I’m older
I can’t shake the taste
And now I sleep with my eyes open
And sing with my hand on my heart
And I pray that one day
You will see that I suffer
I suffer for the sake of our art
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What have we done?
What have we done anyway?
Why doubt yourself
When you can doubt another?
Or each other?
These days I sleep
With a gun under my pillow
And my finger on the trigger
In my mind
And I find
That I sleep more soundly
Even though I am alone
What a dream!
Imagine choosing your moment, where would you be?
If you could choose the air for your last breath, where would you choose to be?
Well I’d be right here
Safe in your arms
With your eyes taking in all I am
All I was, all I could be
Safe in your arms
So cushion my head as you lay me down
Seal my eyes with a kiss
I’m glad to fade out on this perfect moment
Because life won’t get better than this
Life won’t get better than this
I’m not here
This isn’t me
I’ve grown so far
Within me
So far gone
A wall
Within a wall
Within
A wall
But I’m back
On the floor again
Railing against
All my traps
All my precious tricks
Please!
Why are you
So weak?
.
I’m not here anymore, can’t you see?
This isn’t me anymore, I’ve flown away
I’m gone, so far gone
This time I’ve chosen to run
This time I hope it works
Now I’m back on the floor again
Tearing apart all my traps, all my precious tricks
Please! Just let me fade away.
So you say you know me from when I drew breath
And let my first cries shake this mad world
Until I meet my death?
And nothing comes between us
Will nothing bring me harm?
Can you vouchsafe solace beneath your ghostly arm?
Sometimes I feel like crying
When I’m lying in my bed
And sometimes I feel like screaming
But I choke it down instead
You are not my saviour
I never learnt to trust
Can I put faith in your love
When you fill me with this lust?
Sometimes I feel like crying
When I’m lying in my bed
And sometimes I feel like screaming
But I choke it down instead
I guess I’m alone now
As always before
Is there anything for me to light this world
This chore?
Sometimes I feel like crying
When I’m lying in my bed
And sometimes I feel like screaming
But I choke it down instead
Someone will hold you down
And tie you up
It won’t be me
That’s the World Without Me
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Someone will own you
And control you
Beyond my scope
That’s the World Without Me
And I’m sorry
That I’m leaving you now
And I’m sorry
That I’m not strong enough
.
But our children will now never breathe this dirty air
Isn’t that good?
Is that not right?
Isn’t that good enough?
One day you will see
It’s better this way
Where you are stronger
In a World Without Me
I’m sorry I’m not strong enough
What is it you need from me?
It doesn’t matter how hard you look
I disappear!
I can be the vessel 
To shield you from decay
Take from me what you need
To get you through your day
Though your thick-thumbed fumbles
May bruise and sting and scar
I would be as fragile
No matter who you are
What is it you need from me?
It doesn’t matter how hard you look
I disappear!
Though you try to crush me
I still have my name
And though you cannot harm me
You’re failing all the same
And I can’t help you now
Can’t help you now….
It doesn’t matter how hard you look
I disappear!
Why are we here again?
I thought you would remain changed
Your rage sings of self-interest!
Everything you touch
Seems to fall apart
Everything is Slush
Save your shallow art
Why can’t we dance again?
Snap your tempo to mine
And learn to scream selflessly
Everything is now
All streaming from one
Everything is Slush
Melting in the sun
Why can’t we stay the same?
Must we always learn and grow?
Maybe there’s some sense in love
Everything is fading as we grow old
Everything is Slush turning slowly gold
Now there’s no need to fight anymore
The point is long since gone
Let me fade away!
Look where all your talking brought us
Empty Air!
Empty Air!
Can’t you see the tears
Of the ones who bought your lies?
Can’t you hear the screams as we die?
Hey! 
Spare a thought for those you love!
They’re just as doomed as you
If we could all pull together
We might just make it through
.
Now there’s no lights left on
No space left on this swollen earth
You left us with Empty Air
Empty Air!
Nothing but Empty Air!
Step outside of your comfort zone
Step outside of yourself
Take me to where the Neon glows
And the air is bad for your health
I want to feel alive, I want to feel alive!
For once in my life
Close to somewhere that I shouldn’t be, I’m alive!
For once in my life
Neon!
I need to be Neon tonight!
And I know why you don’t like it here
Grey becomes black and white
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Same old story
The drugs bore me
Same old sad faces ignore me
Everyone’s a bore, baby
Everyone but you!
Neon dazzles
Sights are fractals
Silicone confounds and frazzles
Everyone’s a fake baby
Everyone but you!
.
Step outside of your comfort zone
Step outside of yourself
Take me to where the Neon glows
And the air is bad for your health
I want to feel alive, I want to feel alive!
For once in my life
Close to somewhere that I shouldn’t be, I’m alive!
For once in my life
Neon!
I need to be Neon tonight!
And I know why you don’t like it here
Half-hearted seems alright
Slip away!
Let’s slip away!
We’ll live to dance another day
Everyone’s a killer baby
Everyone but you!
Turn the lights out!
Turn the noise down!
Tear the whole sorry thing down!
Everyone’s a mistake baby!
Everyone but you!
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Swim for me
Twist for me
Pretend you’re wild!
So free, happy, for a while
Contain your pain, we are just like you
Frightened, nervous, we are just like you
Show yourself to them all
Let yourself be rated, ranked, carefully coded
But at least happy
Everything looks good out in the sun
Warmth treats us all well
No matter what we’ve done
Old or younger we are just like you
Open, undone, we are just like you
Show yourself to them all
Let yourself be rated, ranked, carefully coded
But at least happy
Can’t be bothered feeling bad in the sun!
Can’t be bothered feeling bad in the sun!
Oh my Darling Boy, where did we go wrong?
Oh my Darling Boy, what did I do wrong?
Oh my Darling Boy, where did you go?
Are you out there searching the world for a love you’ll never know?
Don’t bother, don’t bother, I’m still right here
Don’t bother, don’t bother, I’ll stay right here
Oh my Darling Boy, what if I’m sorry?
Oh my Darling Boy, what if I’m what you need?
Oh my Darling Boy, what makes you so sure
That I can’t be whatever it takes just to make our love endure?
Don’t worry, don’t worry
I’m still right here
Don’t worry, don’t worry
I’ll stay right here
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Oh my Darling Boy, I can make it all OK
Don’t worry about anything
I’ll smoothe your cares away
It’s OK, it’s OK, I’m still right here
It’s OK, it’s OK, I’ll stay right here
Don’t worry, don’t worry, I’m still right here
It’s OK, it’s OK, I’m still right here
Awake and arise
And we’ll go out walking
To the places we’ve known in this too short a time
We have grown together
Grown
Together
.
Now there’s no future
Still we go out walking
And if they could stay out of it
We’d have a chance
To stay together
.
Stay
Together
.
See me!
Write me down!
Spell me how you wish I was, and how I am now!
Tie me to wheels! Rote conceals your intentions,
Your crystalline confusions scatter me until I question my use
How can I be safety? How can I be trustworthy?
How can I be all that you ask when scratching and grasping you tear away my mask?
Weary, worn right down, sick of being a soft voice lost in the crowd
I turn to you, all of you
You cool critics all hypocritically come reaming my matter, my spirit, my task
How can I be safety? How can I be trustworthy?
How can I be all that you ask when scratching and grasping you tear away my mask?
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You and me – all is dream!
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How can I be safety? How can I be trustworthy?
How can I be all that you ask when scratching and grasping you tear away my mask?
You never understood why I was miles away
While you tried to move me
No Little Death could make up for your failings
You’re failing!
.
I never understood while I was miles away
You could not see through me
No Little Death can come between these feelings
Our feelings
When everything is dark I like to slip away
Whilst you hold my body
No Little Death can distract me from feeling
Your failings
.
.
If it was always dark
Could you forget the day?
And just cling to my body?
No Little Death can come between
These ravings and cravings
Come now my little one, come shield me from the light
As I fight to free us
Come Little Death, come closest flight!
Come pain, now come pleasure
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Now hide me from the sun, now bind me as I fight
And forgo thoughts save us
Choose Little Death, choose me not light
Choose purest erasure!
Tenonsaw 